Prayer to St. Gerard

O good St. Gerard,
powerful intercessor before God
and Wonder-worker of our day,
I call on you and seek your help.
You who on earth did always fulfill God's design,
help me to do the Holy Will of God.
Beseech the Master of Life,
from whom all paternity proceeded,
to make me fruitful in offspring,
that I may raise up children to God in this life
and heirs to the Kingdom of His glory
in the world to come. Amen.

When you stand before God and surrender your will to Him, and place all of your heart, soul, and faith in what God has planned for you, and not to think of your wants and desires, only then will God give you the desires of your heart.
-Unknown

Bit of a scare

Before my prometrium last night I had a tinge of brown spotting. I cried then got my wits about me and spent the rest of the night with my feet up on the couch. I did read a bit online that traces of brown spotting are okay but given my history and age, I was concerned. Mr. Thorn stayed downstairs with me most of the night. I kept my St. Gerard handkerchief by my side all night. This morning the spotting was totally gone but I have GOT to take it easy this weekend and not work(against my grain). I prayed a lot and know I am to trust. I remembered these words from yesterday:

Shall I bring a mother to the point of birth, and yet not let her child be born? Says the Lord; Or shall I who allow her to conceive, yet close her womb? says your God. Isaiah 66:9

I'm going to sit with a Sprite and watch TV.

Only a few hours

I will get my results this morning. Pray that it is somewhere around or over 2,000 for the hCG. I'm going to Mass and taking my St. Gerard handkerchief with me. Thank you all who have prayed. I know prayer has brought me this far. Lord, help me trust.

Details, schmeetails...

I wanted to wait until I heard back from the doctor's office on the lab work. I had them do a progesterone test at the same time. It's official. On the progesterone, it is high. 55. I have been using pro-gest cream but minimally. They want to retest me next week. It should be in the 9-47 range and it's 55. What does it mean? Um, maybe multiples to the best of my Google knowledge. They are getting me in to see the doctor fairly quickly. I spent most of the day crying when I found out because I've had dozens of negative tests and really wasn't expecting anything. I did have spotting on day 27-28 of the cycle. Implantation? Dunno. Two and a half long years(I know many wait much longer). I will say, I received my St. Gerard handkerchief this month. I will continue to pray for those still waiting for the gift of children. You girls kept me going and gave me hope when I felt hopeless. So I am doing everything I can in a proactive manner this time around. One baby aspirin, one application of pro-gest per day, folic acid, B6 and Red Raspberry Leaf. And NO caffeine. Thank you all for your prayers and kindness. I will report when I have news. I hope and pray it is good. Thank you, St. Gerard, St. Philomena and St. Maria Goretti for prayers answered.

A gold fertility day

No, I'm not with child...at least not that I know of yet. Day 30 and no sign of a visitor. I did however get my handkerchief from St. Gerard Parish in NY (ty to ma beck and floridawife for that)and I got my shipment of supplements from TTC Store. Oddly enough, the place I ordered from is in the same town we are traveling to in two weeks. Now, irony would be if I AM pregnant. I feel icky/crampy so who knows. I'm too nervous to take a test and I just feel it looming. That would be further irony. The handkerchief gift is so nice and I will take it to Florida with us. We are hopefully visiting 2 shrines there including a Marian shrine. I really want to make time for that. I will keep my fertility gals posted on how these supplements work. I was inspired by floridawife after she went to TCM for some help.

So that is my news. I know, not very eventful but it was a nice surprise to come home to today. Since I take everything that happens as a "sign" we shall see...