My numbers and HCG shots a comin'

I received my lab numbers today for P+7. 40 on estrodial and 14 on progesterone. He wants me off prometrium and on HCG shots starting P+3. We are still treating everything as if I have endo and he believes that is what is causing the luteal phase defect/crazy number. I think it is also my age, from what I have read. Today was the first day I know of that I have voluntarily said, "I would love another child, if it is Your Will." Why these words are odd, I can only believe is because I have been praying for so long that God answers our prayer and the "Your Will" part has always come with grumbling and apprehension. So now I wait another cycle, try to figure out how to become healthier, lose weight, all of the above. I have been so busy with work and homeschool that my health comes last, always. I hope God is taking better care of me than I am of myself. I cut out pop, back to coffee with goat's milk(only) and trying not to snack very much. I have a strong desire to be fit and healthy, just not the means or time, that saddens me. So much snow outside. It's lighting up the entire room. I don't really like snow or cold but I will take the nice natural light.

So, are we there yet?

It's warm today, nature teases this time of year. I long for sun and flowers and green trees and yards. It will hit me like a wet towel when we get the next snow or ice storm. Oh well.
So here I sit on 400 mg of progesterone. I'm sure I will get used to it. Dr. is starting me on HCG shots next month. Oh, I am breaking out like a 16 yr old. Nice, eh? Never mind the dizziness, nausea and feeling like a drunk sailor on a rickety ship all day.
Homeschool going better. I am ahead in many subjects and realize if I am to do this well, we will need to keep my business needs and the kids needs in mind. Tricky but we are managing. We are behind in math, no shock, we will probably go into summer with math lessons. They are almost done with spelling, grammar, penmanship and we finished the first Latin book. Writing didn't go well. They received no creative writing in school so I had to start from scratch and the book was too hard. Eh, we will figure it out.
It has helped that I got two nights out in the past two weeks. One with Mr. Thorn and one with some friends. Stuff rolls off me quicker when I have been out of my crazy house for a bit.
We are hopeful things will be better this year with our parish(although what we have is much better and more stable than what we had to deal with in Kentucky) and fertility/foster/adoption. I pray God leads us down the right path. I can only do all the doctor advises, trust we are exactly where God wants us and find positives in the present.
I feel guilty when I don't blog that often. I am on Facebook more often and I "see" most of my blog friends there so I forget to keep up over here. My homeschool blog got lost in the busyness of the school year and the demands of our new schedules.
I need a nap now. Hehe. Dumb prometrium.

Some news, some snow and you know...

So I have a og friend who has baby news, I am so, so happy about. AYWH and her dh brought home their baby girl yesterday and it made my day, week and more! Honestly, this is more exciting than me finding out we are expecting(I'm not, I'm just saying, I have followed her blog so long and all...) So, if you need a lift and to witness God's amazing love for us, visit and see the happy family.
Next, we are recovering for what seemed like a crazy holiday with me on prometrium(ack, what side effects I had) and catching up with work related business and school. We have a large order to finish and ship and we are trying to complete our second quarter of homeschool. So I will be brief so I can get back to work before the kids come in dripping with snow.
I made a purchase this week for our homeschool classroom in hopes that it would solve some of the ADD issues we are having with staying on task and motivation my younger son to finish work and lessons. It should be delivered tomorrow and looks promising. It is called The Appreciation Station and it is a reward "vending machine" that you can adapt and use to suit your own needs and those of the child. Here is where we purchased it from, it is on clearance and a great price!


The Appreciation Station
For free shipping, use code 391467 at checkout.
Anyway, I am excited because it reiterates the parenting style I have consistently used with my boys(with much success) in rewarding positive behaviors. We plan on using coupons for time with mom or dad, family game and movie nights and some trinkets. I will report back how it works out.
Okay, I need to move on and get in a lot of work today. I would like to blog more but sometimes life gets crazy.
If you would like to follow me on Facebook(I'm much more active there now), post a comment(I won't publish) of how to find you and connect with you there. My frenetic life seems to be more short bursts/FB style at the present time. I'm not giving up the blog, I just know until summer, I will be busy...lol.

New post, Christmas and other musings

Firstly, I have been neglectful. I need to visit and share on this blog because(for one), things are beginning to look up on the fertility front. I had a wacky last month and couldn't even take progesterone because my P day happened two days before my next cycle started. I am CD12 and so far a 10CKL...hmmm...what???? I usually have P on day 19-22 so this is looking good.

I am NOT ready for Christmas. Nothing wrapped, still need to clean, bake more, etc. Mr. Thorn is waiting for me to stop typing so we can have some time to relax. It's been hectic. Homeschool, work and life took over. I miss blogging, I miss visiting blogs...I am just trying to balance.
I am hoping to get labs on P+7 and make an appointment for the first of the year to see what the dr. thinks. I am trying to be patient. Praying that God help me to find health, I am fairly over-worked and not taking care of myself. I pray the new year will find me healthier, and if I am diligent, maybe thinner. I hope to catch up and post again over Christmas but I'm still working on sending out cards and wrapping. I was sick over a week and that didn't help matters. I still keep blog friends in my prayers.

So sorry for too long

Life got crazy. What else can I say. This is the busy time of year for my business and we just wrapped up our 1st quarter and preparing for a trade show in Columbus on Thursday. That should be interesting. I'm getting samples ready and finishing up the kids grades for the quarter. My homeschool office isn't real quick at responding to phone calls so grades were due today and I have nada on the tech side to file. We are busy preparing for that, Christmas, trying to stay above water with homeschool...its all a bit nuts. I don't worry about politics and the world as much because I', so stinking busy. Maybe that's good, we shall see. I will be having a blog giveaway in the next week to celebrate St. Nicks Day, which we love here in Cincinnati. It will be something cool and hopefully a few choices. I feel like I have neglected my blog. Snif. I miss it and sometimes I need an outlet when things seem to be a whirlwind.
Christmas is close. I don't like cold. I will stand the cold for baby Jesus. :)

New stuffs and healthcare

We had a crazy finish to the end of our first quarter for homeschool and today is my first "breather". Things are going okay, I'm trying to focus on the basics, the kids like the extras(art, music, latin) so I try to do what I can. I got my bowels in an uproar after watching the congressional votes go down(live) on Saturday. It sicken me that people are getting so focused on abortion that they are allowing socialist medicine and control of our lives to waltz in the door. This is the evil one using what we hold dear, life, to determine our destiny. Am I the only one that knew the reason they allowed the Stupak Ammendment to even be an issue was because it was the ace in the hole that pushed it through? It was black and white as I watched it all unfold.
On another note, I am in my first cycle with prometrium supplements along with the B6 and D. I have 10 days of 8-10 CM of various types in this cycle. I started prometrium on P+3. Odd side effects but I will deal. I must mosey to teach another lesson and shower for my ds doctor appointment. I'm feeling frustrated today...not about homeschool, life in general. More on that later.

Sacred Heart and the unknown

I have been neglecting posting about our current situation at our parish. I haven't known how to deal with it and maybe, I still don't know what lies ahead. For those who have followed this blog, you know we love the traditional liturgy and have been nomads for quite some time. We finally felt drawn to a parish in Cincinnati that offers an Extraordinary Form Mass every Sunday and holy day and is also quite conservative for the ordinary form as well. This has gradually changed with the new pastor that came in this summer. Unfortunately, changes have come. So far, we can deal with most. Others who attended this Mass have already moved on(left). I am praying for God's Will. It is not a matter of us being attached to a parish as we were a year ago because of a school. But I really felt home in this parish...now I don't know.
If I was single, no big deal. But having children, a husband, uhg, causes anxiety and I am fighting it. The new pastor has no interest in getting to know those who attend the traditional Mass and it is obvious. We had a catered celebration when he first came and he was not present when the EF Mass attendees arrived. He took out the votive candles, wants girl servers, woman and girl "readers" and took out the significant information from the bulletin regarding our Mass and the traditional calender. So, I don't think I am too far off base in saying he doesn't care for my "kind". Sadly, the EF Mass attendees have been supportive financially and physically to the parish life. That is changing. Anyway, it saddens me and we will stay as long as we can and it is bearable. My son recently started serving, too. I will continue to pray. I just don't feel much stability in my life right now. Satan is fighting the traditional movement with a vengeance. We just want a home and stability. We have been through so much and I am not trustful of much right now. Now you know why I have been neglectful in posting on local church matters. I am hopeful for the long-term. I think we may have to go through quite a lot of garbage to get there. I need to just be okay with that and move on.
I pray we all stay well, healthy and sane. Why do I feel like that is too much to ask right now?