Sunday, December 7, 2008

Still alive

I have been nauseous and sleepy but overly thankful to being feeling symptoms. I barely made it through Mass today. I have less than 2 days before I go to the OB with dh to see how things are progressing. I'm preparing to hear the "advanced maternal age" line and just hope for a heartbeat(something I have not heard in almost 8 years). I am glad that I won't be alone. I am really trying hard not to be nervous, but I am human and it is so hard not to worry. I keep trying to brainwash myself that this time is different and to look at how utterly crappy(i.e., symptomatic) I feel. This works sometimes. I am trying to do as I tell my kids and "offer it up".
We were in Columbus all day Thursday and I was so wiped out after that. I forget how this prometrium takes the wind out of you. I am struggling to stay awake right now and I need to get a roast in the oven(which sounds horrid at the moment). The food plan is not going well. Most of the time I don't feel like eating anything. And when I do eat, 20 minutes later, the nausea kicks in big time. So it is a battle of yuck vs. ick. It is taking a tremendous amount of trust in God and some days are better than others. Some days it is impossible to get out of bed or off the couch. I have a huge wholesale order to complete and I need to get motivated for that and to finish my spring line...period. There is no backup. I am it. I will post when I have some results or news from the OB. I pray it is hopeful and good.

7 comments:

cordelia said...

thanks for the update...i've been praying for you. hope the sicky feeling is a sign of good things. maybe twins!!!

Sew Infertile said...

Excited to hear how your update goes! Praying for you tonight!

Beth said...

Praying!!!

Kit said...

Hang in there, dearest Thorn! You've been in my thoughts and prayers!

:)
K

andnotbysight said...

I'm praying, too! Man, the prometrium is rough! I hope you have great news soon!

Tracy said...

I've been praying and will continue to pray.. think positive:)

Barb said...

A prayer going up for you!