
I was able to go to Mass today and it was uplifting and so needed. I have been carrying so much sorrow and pain and I needed to feel I still had "the Church" to be there for me. I told Jesus how sad I was and how hard it is to just move on. The way the light hit through the windows in the Cathedral took my breath away for an instant and I knew right then that I have been given a gift. No matter how crappy life gets, how much loss and pain I muddle through, I have something worth more than all that I lost and gave up. I have the one, true Church that Christ gave to us for always. I'm not going to see that everyday. Some days are dark and it may be hard to see around the clouds. In the end, many search for the truth all their life and never find it. It took a pretty sunbeam on a grey wall for me to realize this. After a very rough morning(full of beating myself up for not being perfect), I was fortunate God showed me something so simple and magnificent. It might be a good thing I put this in words for those days when I need it.
The workload this week has been insane. I will need to somehow develop super-human powers to get through it all. Oddly enough, the response to Halloween this year has been overwhelming. Christmas is selling early. Go figure. With Mr. Thorn being out of work for over two weeks, we need the money badly. It will be insane all the way through the first week of December and then it just stops. So I will be knee deep in orders all week. I have more orders that are pending so again, I need a bionic foot and hands to get these orders cranked out.
Mr. Thorn and I got a night out last night. We went to a local Eye-tal-eon restaurant and had a nice dinner. The rest of the night was spent working and doing domestic things(i.e. shopping at Wal-Mart). So much for romance. It was nice to talk and slow down from our rushed daily life.
The TLM at the Cathedral Basilica is moving to St. Bernard's at the end of this month. There may be another TLM, nothing definite right now. It's nice to know there are people in the diocese to support the TLM.