Friday, November 16, 2007

How do you hope?

We haven't found my parents dog yet. We have had some spottings, some leads, none have panned out. There is such a bizarre spiritual component and it makes dealing with this even harder. My kids keep praying and hoping and they have such confidence that Tawny will come back and that we will find her. I, on the other hand, have this human condition where I look at the other times lately that I have experienced loss and grief and see this going that same path...no happy ending. Maybe I am feeling beat up. I understand the meaning of suffering and why God allows it. It is the relentless suffering and the loss of happiness and hope that I'm not handling. I should be able to but I am failing miserably. It could be stress, lack of sleep of any of the other myriad of components that have me feeling overwhelmed. I want so bad to trust and to put things in God's hands. I did that with the baby and the baby is with God now. Not once but twice. I'm sure it would be best not to judge a moment or event on past history, I'm just not very good at it. Thank you all for the prayers. My hope is to see the good that comes from this if there is no happy ending.

4 comments:

Lily said...

This always helps me when I am feeling hopeless, when the suffering seems too hard. Perhaps it will help you as well. I know you know this, sometimes it just helps to see again...
http://www.catholictradition.org/Mary/7sorrows.htm

Exspectantes said...

Just a word of encouragement. My mother's cat was missing for over six weeks during the summer. There was a tropical storm during that time. She kept looking for him and following all leads, despite people telling her to give up. He was finally found through the help of an entire neighborhood effort. Hurray! Many prayers.

Tracy said...

My neighbor's cat was missing over a yr and came back on her own (pregnant) but she did come back, so they were doubly surprised and boy what cute kittens!

Don't give up hope!

a thorn in the pew said...

That link at Catholic Tradition was great! I bookmarked it.