Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Update on levels

The doctor's office had the final results and they are hCG of 15,213(after the 1,143 on 9/07) . Not the best news. I caved this morning, cried, resigned myself to a failed pregnancy and tried to get on with my day. I have had a bizarre "flutter" in my very low abdomen off and on today, no spotting, no real cramping of any sort. I go back tomorrow for more blood work. The hCG levels begin tapering off at this point so I'm not sure what a good number would be, I have prayed and followed the advice of many who have suggested devotions and prayers and it really helped today. Maybe God does want a miracle for us. My mom told her hairdresser today about what is going on with us and he said we were like "Job". Maybe. I still have too much to be thankful for so I don't see it that way. It is bringing our family closer and I appreciate my little ones running around here all the more right now. When you are truly pro-life, it is hard to ever imagine just not having another child. It's like breathing. My opinion, I know, but I believe it. Thanks again for all the well wishes and prayers. It has given me incredible strength during a difficult time.

6 comments:

Beth said...

I'm so sorry Thorn.

Lily said...

I am so sorry, and prayers will continue for you.

Tracy said...

I'm so sorry, I do know what you mean about children, I am unable to ever have another child and I know how you feel, we are discerning about adoption and foster care right now. This I do know.. when God closes a door, he really does open a window. I will always ache that I can't physically have more kids.. but I offer it up to God and thank him for the four he has given me.. it is not easy.. but I know that his death on the cross wasn't easy... so I just keep moving on... your so in my prayers!!!

FloridaWife said...

I have been thinking and pausing to pray for you throughout the day. I will continue to do so.

You said it well when you said, "when you are truly pro-life, it is hard to ever imagine just not having another child. It's like breathing." You expressed very well how I feel.

May God bless you and your family.

cordelia said...

oh, oh, i know the ache...i'm so sorry.

Amy said...

I'm so sorry.