Sunday, September 23, 2007

What a night

I'm just now coherent enough to write. I was at the hospital most of the night with Mr. Thorn and kids. He had a reopening of the wound from his surgery and lost a ton of blood. Since we couldn't get it to stop the doctor had us go to the ER and meet him there. I had to dress all kids(and get snack, drinks and video games) and drove us all up to hospital. They performed the surgery at about 2:30 am and were able to cauterize the opening the stitches came out of. I went home and the doctor called me to let me know how the surgery went. I waited up until about 4 am, got the call, he did fine and I went to sleep. I got back up at 7:30 to get him from the hospital, had to get all the kids again and medicines in them and go. I knew in the back of my mind we might not get to church. I just can't do it. I'm just too weak and Mr. Thorn is completely out cold asleep. My kids are actually upset, especially my oldest. I told him I tried but it is too dangerous for me to drive like this. We will pray a rosary today. It's a miracle we got through last night, really. I told God at one point "You will have to do all this because I can't figure it out". I was supposed to be keeping my feet up, resting, no exertion because of the cramping and spotting and here I was walking miles all over the hospital with three kids. Amazingly the spotting is completely gone and the cramps have subsided. So now I'm left with tired. I can do tired. I realized that now I'm very upset and feel empty when I miss Mass. I never felt that way with the Novus Ordo Mass(most of them I should say, not all). While this feeling isn't pleasant, it is welcome because I know I am in the right place. When lack of Mass/spiritual food makes me feel lost and upset, something is right in my life. Especially when I see the same disappointment in my kids. I'm nodding off here typing. I need to stay awake to supervise kids until Mr. Thorn can take over later. What a night...

10 comments:

Laura The Crazy Mama said...

Can anybody from church bring you communion (priest, deacon)? I will make a spiritual communion for you today (I'm going to six pm Mass) but it would be nice if you and your kids could receive today. You could use the strength He can provide!

a thorn in the pew said...

Not that I know of. We are in the process of joining another parish so we don't have that option now. If I thought It wouldn't be dangerous for me and the kids, I would have gone. I overdid it last night. It's hard because we never miss Mass.

a thorn in the pew said...

Also, I can't leave my dh alone today really. The doctor called a bit ago and said to keep an eye on him today because of risk of fever and being unsteady. We are quite the pair. Oh, and my mom can't really help as she has an orthopedic boot on her foot and is on crutches(she used to bring me communion years ago when I was sick). What the heck?

Mrs. L said...

God wants you just where you are now, taking care of your family. I don't take missing Mass lightly, but there are those few times when it must happen. Say some extra prayers while your feet are up if possible, and maybe you can attend a daily Mass in the following week or so too so that you may not have to wait until next Sunday to recieve Communion. Whatever you do, don't drain yourself more by feeling guilty about not being able to make it to Mass. It happens to us all. God doesn't will for you to be upset about it. Take care!

cordelia said...

i spent one sunday (all day) at Children's with my son, we thought he had meningitis, i was so greatful he didn't and so exhausted too. obviously we missed Mass, but it couldn't be helped...we went to Mass Monday morning and I thanked God for the health of my son.

Tracy said...

God knows why you can't come to Mass.. he loves you and he is a very loving and understanding father. Get some rest.. sounds like you had a CRAZY night... I just feel so bad for you.. you are such a trooper!! God blessings to you and your family and hope Mr. Thorn is on the mend.

gemoftheocean said...

God understands. You are under doctor's orders to take it easy, and don't take the old parish too lightly...call up and see if someone can bring you Communion, if possible. They would want to know your husband is in hospital too.

Later in the week, health permitting, you can go to Mass.

Ma Beck said...

Oh, DO take it easy, Thornie!
Prayers for your entire family.
:(

FloridaWife said...

I'm relieved that the spotting and cramping are gone. I want you to know that I prayed for you throughout the day. For example, I was driving and thought of you - prayer. Then later on - prayer.

I'm so happy to hear that TIRED is all you have.

Lily said...

Oh gosh, you've had a tough time lately...sorry I missed it with all my internet problems. But I am praying now. God bless you and Mr. Thorn and your children. I am so glad you are all doing much better, and as floridawife said, I'm glad tired is all you have.