Back on HCG

Back on R2P2 of HCG diet. I'm trying to tell myself this is not forever. I'm not going to say that eating 500 calories a day is fun. Before you scold me(haha), you can read about the HCG called Pounds and Inches by Dr. Simeon. I feel better, this time I am down 15 lbs, but I have the dbl progesterone and estrodial to deal with(oh, and Femara). I'm not starving just thinking about food more than I should and have told myself it is the hormone supplements. I didn't have that last time.

I recommend the HCG diet if you have thyroid issues or adrenal fatigue. I could not successfully lose weight before this diet. I ate less and worked harder than most and either lost 2 lbs in one month or nothing and sometimes even gained. I think it would be awesome for those with PCOS, too.

So I will see where this cycle ends, hoping for a baby, trying not to be anything but a realist regarding this matter. I am 42, I love babies and children and pray for God's Will. I still hope. I've been scolded for "obsessing over my miscarriages/babies/infertility." I am only here to please God and I have asked God to take this desire away if it is never meant to be. That's about it.

Health and miscarriage

I haven't talked for a bit about the miscarriage issue. It is on my mind a lot but since I feel in limbo, I generally keep quiet. I haven't been taking temps, charting, nada. I will start up my regimen again in a little over a week. Even at my age, I needed a break following the miscarriage. My health was shot, my body was tired and my business took over my life. So now I am ready to move on, get healthy and I pray that God will bless our family with another baby someday. My kids still pray and I have asked that if it is not possible, that God take that desire away(especially from my daughter). So I sit, still longer for another one in our family and trying to be patient as God's plan for our family happens(whatever that may be).

On that note, there are three major things I will be doing differently this time around. One, cutting caffeine. I have read that caffeine intake can reduce fertility by half. Next, cutting alcohol. Except for social drinking here and there, alcohol also cuts fertility so that will be to a minimum too. Lastly, Vitamin E. I have researched and found that women who have had recurrent miscarriage are helped by supplementing with Vitamin E and (Folic Acid) prior to the next conception. There was a study of 81 women who had a total of 227 miscarriages and went on the small dose of E and 61 of them gave birth subsequently after this was added. I am more than willing to give this a try. I went back on my supplements, started temp charting and hope to lose weight. I will keep you posted on how this goes. When I got out my supplements, I found my St. Gerard handkerchief that I received in the mail the last time I conceived. I haven't given up hope or the desire for more children. For whatever that is worth...