Sunday, November 16, 2008
Enough with the suspenders!
I was in a "didn't get much sleep last night" stupor and did not realize how obvious my last entry came across. Rather than keep you in suspenders, I'm coming out with it. We are expecting and it was quite well, unexpected. While I was getting my health in order and adjusting to the new way of eating, we stopped charting and stopped trying. Guess what? God wanted this on His terms and that is just what we got. I am 8 weeks today and feeling blessed but arfy. I have to say that the nutrients I received through IV therapy attributed to this amazing transformation. I conceived less than 2 weeks after seeing the doctor and 3 total IV treatments. He said it usually take 6-8 treatments and couldn't believe it happened so fast(I am NOT young, by any means). We had hoped to start charting and trying after the new year.
For those not familiar with my journey, you can search by keyword "infertility" or "fertility". In short, I was able to conceive 3 children using Napro Technology(Creighton) and then with our fourth pregnancy, I miscarried and the baby stopped growing at 8 weeks. After that, I could not get pregnant(tried two+ years). Last year I started clomid in the summer and conceived in August and miscarried again at 5 weeks(a blighted ovum). At 40, I figured I would need help conceiving let alone having a viable/full-term pregnancy. So here I am, praying and trying to keep my head on. I am thankful to be here but do not take this miracle for granted. I am hopeful but I know if God needs me to suffer(again), it will happen but I hope for life. I never stop praying for my blog friends still trying to conceive and carry a child to term. The catholic in me feels guilt and I can't help that. It's not that I am not thankful, I am cautious and feel hurt from those I know who still struggle. I hope my miracle can bring hope. I have been inspired by so many of you and couldn't hold my news back knowing my words may help someone pray that God will lead you to the place or event with answers.
This food plan is hard but I attribute my way of eating to fixing my old and wonky hormones. I can say that Lyn Vaccaro and floridawife were an inspiration in finding the "nutrition" and supplement component that nudged me in the "food" direction. Once your liver is free to do it's thing, your hormones will behave. Now that my hormones are raging, the hot drinks, protein and veggies are harder to choke down. I tell God everyday that I will do my best. Right now, no food sounds good. Eh. At least I feel horrible, that's a good thing.
So I thank you all for prayers, know that I still pray everyday for those who desire life that I have met online. If this screwed up(and not too healthy) old lady can do it, there is hope. I was so thankful today, a priest dear to us blessed our unborn baby, I was able to go to confession and both my boys served at the EF together for the first time(what a day). Thank you again for thinking of me in your prayers and I will keep praying for you too!