Anger doesn't begin to describe...

My oldest has been really ill lately(we have had labs, tests, screens, etc. and don't know if it is med or health related) and I DIDN'T need this on top of what I have on my plate. I picked the kids up from school and found out they had been forced to go to the SAFE TOUCH program without my knowledge or permission(the group that does this is a secular place associated with United Way and receive government funding, nuff said). We have always been given the papers to opt out and I am still in shock. You want to know why parents homeschool....ummm...hmm. I don't want to go into much more about this. I'm too upset. The bishop is wrong, the diocese is wrong, the schools are wrong. Quit selling out our kids over gay pedophile priests. Period. I didn't start or contribute to the abuse and yet, I am bearing the brunt of the crap as a result(and my innocent kids). Oh, and it's my anniversary today. This is kind of overshadowing that whole event.
For the record, I have talked to my kids about abuse and perpetrators and what's okay ON MY TERMS. It's my job. That was taken away from me. I'm so done with this diocese. I'm just a parent trying to raise my children to love, know and serve God. That is an impossible task in the Covington Diocese. I have tried, relentlessly. I need to log off before my anger consumes me. I am going to pray about where to go and what to do next.

Parent's rights. None.

More school issues. Just when I think it's the end of the year and I am about to be free from this constant battle, it continues. My child, who is autistic and making his first communion, had to practice receiving the "wine" as he called it. Not happy. Steaming might be as kind of a word as I can muster. When my rights, which I have expressed since the beginning of the year are ignored or defiantly by-passed, I get angry. If I had neglected or was vague about my wish that he receive communion on the tongue ONLY and no precious blood(or as they call it "The Wine"), it would be different. I was VERY specific, detailed and went through all the proper channels. While you cannot force anyone to receive communion one way or the other, you cannot force them to practice YOUR WAY. Especially with an autistic child who is obedient and does everything he is told. I was seriously ready to go postal this afternoon when he told me. I need to add that my concern over this is two-fold. First, with texture and taste sensitivities, I worry about him receiving the precious blood. Second, since we regularly attend the local indult, I do not want him confused. These are both major concerns. If I was a typical "I don't care about how it's done" parent, normal child, this wouldn't be an issue. I have been very open, honest, truthful and professional in all my dealings regarding this most important sacrament.

So I will have to deal with this all over again. There are only 3 children receiving on the tongue out of the whole class. Sad. If I come out of the week in one piece it will be a miracle. I'm coming unglued over the bad theology, superseding the parents authority and disrespect for my rights as a parent. Yes, I know, this is why parents home school. Did I mention my kindergartner had to practice "communion" with Starburst and kool-aid in dixie cups a few weeks ago? Kindergarten. Even she was smart enough to say she didn't want to do it. I need a solution.

On another note, I did have a consult with St. Thomas Aquinas Academy yesterday that went really well. They recommended I home school my oldest the first year. He is the one furthest behind that has been so lost in his outrageously large class this year. I am already in the process of scheduling a meeting to see what will happen next year. I need closure on this and need to do what is best for my children. I will be praying a lot this week and discussing things with my husband. It breaks my heart to see the loss of faith, sacredness and truth where we are currently. Just make it through Sunday, just make it through Sunday....